LIFESTYLE: A Declaration to Myself.
Updated: Jun 9, 2019
"The World Is Your Oyster." Translation: You have the ability and freedom to do exactly what you want...you are in a position to take the opportunities that life has to offer.
-An idiom from William Shakespeare's The Merry Wives of Windsor.
I was scrolling through Pinterest and I came across this quote, which represents exactly what I believe in. I am a firm believer that you can be and do whatever you want in this life but you have to be willing to put in the work...and with God by your side, anything is possible. I've noticed that it's the people who want something so bad, more than anything in the world, that usually achieve their goals. It may not come in a timely manner but I believe it will come. You just gotta work for it, ask God for guidance and be patient.
I believe this quote found me today and I am very grateful it did. It reminded me that I am at the point in my life where I need to take myself and my craft more seriously. I need to be more confident in my work both in and out of the classroom. Next year I'll be graduating and it is important that I continue to acquire and hone all the skills I need as a performer/creative while I still have the opportunity.
The skills I acquire now will be very essential to me when I'm in grad school and when working in a professional setting.
I spent the majority of my sophomore year not acting. I didn't enroll in many performance courses as I should've. Usually, I try to balance my schedule with design and performance courses. However, the ratio was definitely off that year. I also refused to audition for any of the main season shows (which I regret.) Design projects/courses allow me to think outside the box which I really enjoy and appreciate, but design isn't my primary focus. I realized that I was occupying my time with various design projects because it didn't require the same level of vulnerability as performing did. Acting and Performance requires you to be vulnerable and to be honest that was something that I tried to avoid at all costs. I was making excuses all year for not performing/auditioning which stemmed from a lack of confidence in myself and my acting ability. No matter how many roles I get or how many times someone acknowledges the amount of growth I've experienced, there are times that I still feel that I am not good enough. I also have the tendency to think that people won't approve of what I bring to the table.
When I didn't audition that year, I didn't think anyone would notice but I was wrong. One of my former professors approached me and asked why I failed to show up. He was disappointed and began to lecture me but he said something that resonated with me, "You have the tools, and you have the material, you just have to show up and use them."
I am in currently in the second semester of my junior year and although I have become much more confident with performing, there's still much more work to be done. I decided some time ago that the performing arts was the career path that I wanted to pursue and I plan to follow through. Therefore, I am going to use the tools/materials I have and "show up." I am dedicating this summer and my last few semesters in school to performance. Although I enjoy the design aspect of film/theatre I really like performing and It's time that I stop pretending that I don't. I know I am good enough and I have the ability to be better. I simply have to put in the work and be confident. I know that I will succeed and prosper because I have God on my side and with God I am great.
With this being said, I challenge all of you to believe in your craft whatever that may be. Really put in the work to accomplish your dreams and don't be afraid to seek help when you need it. Be proud and confident in yourself/craft. May we all shine in our respective areas. The World Is Our Oyster. We got this!!